Tuesday, September 26, 2006

Prayer for purity of heart

Dear Lord,

Good morning po! Today, I start working. Today, we set goals and we aim high. Dear Lord, I ask that You guide us. Lord, please help us to focus on work. Please help us to hav the right heart in everything we do.

Lord, I ask that you guide our thoughts. Guard my thoughts Oh Lord. Keep my heart pure in everything, especially towards my officemates. Lord, help me to be happy when someone is happy, and sad when someone is sad.

Yet, help me to see you in everything, not to focus on man, but on your hand in everything. Lord, please help our team to be united, not divided. Please teach us how to work together harmoniously.

Father, please, please keep my heart pure and good and kind like Jesus'. Father, Lord, I need you so much. Thank you so much.

In Jesus' name I pray,
Ingrid

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

Seeing Jesus eye to eye

60Peter replied, "Man, I don't know what you're talking about!" Just as he was speaking, the rooster crowed. 61The Lord turned and looked straight at Peter. Then Peter remembered the word the Lord had spoken to him: "Before the rooster crows today, you will disown me three times." 62And he went outside and wept bitterly.

Luke 22:60-62

What was in Jesus' eyes when he looked straight at Peter that made Peter weep bitterly? What were those eyes saying? Of course, we can only guess. Maybe it's "I still love you Peter", or "I already forgave Peter", or "I told you so. You didn't listen to me", or "You said you will die with me."

Whatever it was, it was a look that made Peter faithful, even to the point of dying for Jesus. I remember this song from the Upside Down play that goes, (Abby, Peter's wife singing) "Don't you know that I have watched you cry every time the rooster crows?...But you've changed so much. I forgot you cursed...."

Then the chorus goes, (Abby singing) " Don't you dare even give a thought of saving me today. I'm already saved and for that gift, there's no price I won't pay. Get behind us Satan! The devil's last chance slips away. God won't have our lives ignored, Simon. Remember the Lord." (I can sing it for you if you request so. hehe. I love this song)

Abby sang it when Peter was asked to choose between renouncing his faith in Jesus and saving his wife Abby from crucifixion.

The end of the play was happy! Peter remembered the Lord. There was something about that look that made him remember the Lord at the point of his death.

It made me wonder, how different will life be when Jesus can look straight at our eyes everytime we are faced with a difficult decision? While writing this, I know I have difficult decisions to make everyday--not potentially fatal ones, but just the decision to be humble or not. I wish I can look at Jesus' eyes and have the strength to make the right decision.

I'm sure Jesus' eyes can speak volumes. I wish I can dream about them. But hey, this is life. The reality is, I won't see Him 'til His second coming. I guess I just have to look at the Bible to know what He has to say.

PRAYER:
Lord, help me to see you eye to eye everytime I'm faced with difficult choices. Let not the confusing looks on people's faces intimidate me from doing what will please You. Sometimes, I look around me too much and look at your words much, much less. Please strengthen my will to open your words everyday that I may live by them.

I need You Lord. Help me remember you and picture how You will look at me when I make my choices. Lord, I know you are my God, but sometimes I do need to see You as human as well, because it makes it easier for me to understand You. It makes me feel that You are not uncreachable, but You are a God who can relate with me.

I love you Lord and may you be with me today and with all my brothers and sisters, and of course my husband.

Bless this day Lord.

Amen.

Thursday, September 07, 2006

Lord, I need you

Lord,

I've ran on my own strength the past several days and now I am out of strength.

Father, suddenly I feel so tired, yet I also feel that I have no right to rest. There's much to be done and I can't afford to stop working. Lord, yet I know that this is one of those times when I need to stop and reconsider my life. This is one of those moments when I just have to be still and know that you are God.

You know more than anyone else what the future holds and it'll do us a lot of good to get wisdom from you, but I failed to do that. I am so sorry for relying on my own strength and my own talent and skills. Lord, take all these anxieties from me because You are more able to handle them than me.

Lord, I also realized that I have drifted far from You. I don't feel hungry and thirsty for You, yet I know that I am dry as far as my relationship with You is concerned. I must have shifted my priorities to the wrong things Lord. I must have a numb heart right now to not feel that I need You. I must have harbored so much pride in my heart.

Lord, I'm so sorry. I envy those people who are seeking you right now. They may still be in the dark right now but soon they will find You; and that is the most wonderful feeling ever. I am sorry Lord for being out of touch with the Holy Spirit. I am probably grieving Him a lot right now. Please forgive me.

Lord, thank you for music. I find it very soothing to listen to music. It helps my heart beat slow down and it pacifies or moderates the conflicting feelings inside me. Thank you for giving us the gift of music.

Lord, I know that it doesn't take much to gain ground on my relationship with You again. Yes it may take a little sacrifice, but You Lord will not turn a deaf ear nor a blind eye on my desire to change and repent. Lord, strengthen me because I am weak. Please clear my mind so that the Holy Spirit may be heard by me without ambivalent messages. Lord, I need your wisdom because I so lack it.

Father, I wish I can tell you that I love You so much but I know that it has to be seen in my life. It is my desire to grow in my love for you right now. IT is my desire to draw closer to you. Nothing else is sweeter in this life but sharing a intimate love relationship with You Oh, Lord. I desire to love You!

Please answer my prayer and strengthen my will to act on the Spirit's prompting. I love you Lord and I am desiring to love you more.

Daughter,
Ingrid