Lord, I need you

Lord,

I've ran on my own strength the past several days and now I am out of strength.

Father, suddenly I feel so tired, yet I also feel that I have no right to rest. There's much to be done and I can't afford to stop working. Lord, yet I know that this is one of those times when I need to stop and reconsider my life. This is one of those moments when I just have to be still and know that you are God.

You know more than anyone else what the future holds and it'll do us a lot of good to get wisdom from you, but I failed to do that. I am so sorry for relying on my own strength and my own talent and skills. Lord, take all these anxieties from me because You are more able to handle them than me.

Lord, I also realized that I have drifted far from You. I don't feel hungry and thirsty for You, yet I know that I am dry as far as my relationship with You is concerned. I must have shifted my priorities to the wrong things Lord. I must have a numb heart right now to not feel that I need You. I must have harbored so much pride in my heart.

Lord, I'm so sorry. I envy those people who are seeking you right now. They may still be in the dark right now but soon they will find You; and that is the most wonderful feeling ever. I am sorry Lord for being out of touch with the Holy Spirit. I am probably grieving Him a lot right now. Please forgive me.

Lord, thank you for music. I find it very soothing to listen to music. It helps my heart beat slow down and it pacifies or moderates the conflicting feelings inside me. Thank you for giving us the gift of music.

Lord, I know that it doesn't take much to gain ground on my relationship with You again. Yes it may take a little sacrifice, but You Lord will not turn a deaf ear nor a blind eye on my desire to change and repent. Lord, strengthen me because I am weak. Please clear my mind so that the Holy Spirit may be heard by me without ambivalent messages. Lord, I need your wisdom because I so lack it.

Father, I wish I can tell you that I love You so much but I know that it has to be seen in my life. It is my desire to grow in my love for you right now. IT is my desire to draw closer to you. Nothing else is sweeter in this life but sharing a intimate love relationship with You Oh, Lord. I desire to love You!

Please answer my prayer and strengthen my will to act on the Spirit's prompting. I love you Lord and I am desiring to love you more.

Daughter,
Ingrid