Prayer for direction

Dear Lord,

Thanks for the opportunity and time to talk to You. Thank You Lord that despite my inconsistencies and lukewarmness right now, your grace is there. Please help me repent as Jesus compels the church in Revelations to go back to their first love. How do I really go back to my first love?

As human, I know that I've been excited about so many things in my life. But, excitement fades away and becomes old. I never thought I would ever experience staleness in my relationship with You. But, here I am, standing where countless Christians have probably stood. Lord, should I look for the old "inspired" and "in love" feelings for You? Or as a faithful disciple would do, should I just keep on loving you by obeying your commands?

Things I read from the books can be confusing sometimes. The book, "Five Love Languages", say that feelings of being in love for at most 2 years. After 2 years, true love comes along. This is the period when you are no longer controlled by your excited hormones, and you see all the imperfections of your relationship, YET you decide to love. Is this the period of true love Lord?

However, the book, "Sacred Romance," suggests that it is not right to just get swallowed by church services or Christian acts; the heart and all the emotions that go with it must be protected in order for our true selves to become alive.

Lord, you know that even in my life, this is a period of no excitement and no direction. I'm at a lost as to what I really want in life and what career I should pursue. My heart tells me that I should just pursue things I love to do, but the practical side of me says, "You are young no longer. It is time to think about family and how to support family." My practical side says the right career is one that pays a lot.

Lord, please help me. Please send someone to help me sort out my thoughts and give direction to my life. Lord, sorry that I can be fickle minded at time, but I really want purpose and meaning out of my life. Please lead me. I love you Lord. Amen