Show me the way

Dear God,

How are you?

You know that I got fired from Qwest recently for not hitting my quota. It's a big disappointment for me because, first of all I've never been fired. Secondly, I feel like I gave my best and yet it wasn't enough. It makes me feel inadequate and below average.

Now, I'm at home. I'm supposed to be resting like a lot of moms tell me. They tell me that I should get as much rest as I can right now because once the baby is out, I'll be so tired most of the time.

I do want to rest but the guilt in my heart about not working at these difficult financial times. My husband is left to work for our family. I also think he's very pressured about it, though he doesn't admit it.

It is true what he said about me last night. I am fleeting, fickle minded. I don't know what I want. It's sad. I don't want to be fickle minded. I've never kept a job for at least a year. I'm always attracted by something better or always think that the next career or job is the one I'm looking for.

I feel tired and sad God. I wish I could find a mentor to help me and inspire me and motivate me. Please help me Lord because I have no sense of direction career-wise. I'm sad about this. Please help me find my rest and finally have a career I will love and enjoy and that will meet our family's needs. I love you Lord and forgive me if I'm fickle minded. Please guide me and show me the way. AMen.