Moving on...

Dear Lord,

Good morning!

You see through my heart and you know that I am anxious right now. I don't really know why but there are some stressful, yet exciting events in our lives right now.

For now, I know that I need to spend more time with You. I just don't have the peace that comes from trusting You. It's not that I don't want to trust you, it's just that many times, I make the mistake of trying to do things on my own futile effort. How can I be so "stupid" in that sense? Running on my own fuel just doesn't work Lord. I am like an appliance and you are my powersource. I can only run on battery for sometime, but not for long.

Lord, You really are the source of joy and peace in my life. I need you so much. There is no one like you in my life. When I'm not in touch with you, even my marriage doesn't seem good. Lord, You are the wellspring of my life.

Father, I'm also kinda sad that Joe doesn't seem as involved with our mood. It's probably an unfair thing to say because he is involved. It's just that, I've been packing our stuff for the whole week and today is his day off. He's supposed to be helping me but he still has a meeting and would like to go to a chiropractor. I feel that he's in comfort, while I'm doing a lot. Well, may be it's just my emotions getting overboard because of my anxiuosness to move to our new apartment and get over with the stress.

Starting a new job is also kind of stressful. I know there's a lot of expectations and I have fears that I will not meet the objectives of my job. Lord, please help me. I really need a self-esteem booster, but more importantly, I need a faith booster. It's been really stressful lately.

Another thing that made me really sad was the accident that Judy Brost died from. It's really, really sad for me. You know how I admire her. I couldn't imagine her being in such a tragic accident. I feel really sad about that. I can still picture her smile and her kind face. Now, she's gone...just like that. Oh Lord, you hold the length of our days in your hands. You are master of the universe.

Lord, I also want to see my parents this year. I miss them a lot. I want to send pictures to them. Please lengthen their days Lord and please allow us to live together again. I love my parents and I am excited to live with them now that they're disciples.

Lord, please strengthen their faith as well. Thanks for them Lord. I pray that my sister becomes a disciple as well. I pray for Alyssa, that we'll have a great relationship and that someday she becomes a disciple and I wanna help her become one.

Lord, so much to pray for. Thank you so much for your love and guidance. Thanks so much for your grace and patience. I love you Lord. Amen.